ABOUT ME / ARTIST STATEMENT
Depending on your point of view, you could say a child growing up in the high desert, mid 70's to late 80's, either had a lot to look at or very little. I had a lot. Riding in the back seat of my parents car, with my imagination running wild, I would stare out of the window at the desert scenery rushing by. I remember wishing I had the power to stop the car so I could get out and explore the areas we would pass by. Creek beds, abandoned homes, single dirt roads that seemed to vanish into the distance seemed plentiful and my dad somehow always knew the best spots for us kids. It was endless fun.
Being exposed to films is one of my earliest memories and by age 9 my brothers and I had been corralled to the movie theater by our parents countless times. I was introduced to the power of storytelling through light and sound. It was my first love and ambition. When I was 13, I got my hands on a VHS camcorder and I started making short movies and skits with my brothers and friends.
Since I was young I have often felt that I see and experience things in my own unique way. My photography eventually allowed me to capture that point of view and share it with others, giving me and my inner dialog a voice of expression.
I hope to have my images come across like blueprints of who I am and where I come from. Often my ideas are inspired by some childhood memory, cinematic experience or just by emotion.
I am always looking for the next image and cannot keep myself from constantly observing the light and scenery around me - Going out on long scouts, always seeking out the next location.
Once an idea enters my mind it will stay there until I capture it. Before shooting, I will, quite obsessively, think about the idea/location for days or even weeks. I'll drive by or visit an area many times to take mental notes on how the light behaves at certain times of day.
Taking and planning out images gives me a feeling of freedom and empowerment from a time when I could not do much and had little control over my life.
I have a love-hate relation with time. I despise how fast and fleeting it can treat things in its path. Memories of people, places and emotions are all so fragile and can fade so easily. I have huge regrets avoiding pictures as a young adult, often and purposefully shying away from photo attempts. Even more so, not capturing more images from my son's childhood.
Capturing these small moments into a single frame and creating an emotional or physical record is a rewarding experience for me. I believe I capture things in a unique way and that I have a lot to contribute to the medium of photography. I enjoy it even more when people understand and appreciate my work.
BENJI STEIN PHOTOGRAPHY - Orange County, California